Anonymous asked: Don't purge. You're strong, you can cope with your anxiety without this. At the very least, put it off for a bit, distract yourself if possible, then see how you feel in a few hours x

thank you.

bdoonahmed-deactivated20110630 asked: Hey love,

I read your post, about what seemed to be some sort of betrayal. But I just wanted to let you know, I'm here if you ever need me, and you're never alone.

People are hurt everyday, people put their faith and hope and heart into people to have it torn apart. But it'll get better, one day, you'll find that the only person you need to put your faith and hope and love into is yourself. <3 You can always recover from what others do to you.

I like to think of this quote when others have hurt me: "Truth is, everyone's going to hurt you, you just have to find the one's worth suffering for." - Bob Marley.

I hope this helped, I hope you feel better, and I hope you'll remember me if you need somone. Feel better love. <3

Thank you soo much for this - made me feel really good <3 And i’ll take you up on that offer of being there. and know that i’m always here for you.

Honestly something broke inside and I’m not sure how to turn around and make it better. I’m not sure how to turn back time & make things right. And truly, I’m on the break of giving in and let things just flow over me. I had SO much trouble trusting people and she was the ONE person whom I gave all my trust to (like EVERYTHING that trust meant, I gave to her). And she ripped it from under my feet. And I’m crushed and broken. My trust is now broken and up come the walls. :/ why do these things happen?

Hello life of destruction possibly.

Once again, pauls home finds another way to intervene with me and paul being able to see eachother. she decided to bring it upon herself to tell her friend about paul being able to give her a massage when she knows today is me & pauls day to be together .. (she knows because it happens every Sunday). So he left and who knows how long he will be gone because once he enters the house, he never seems to be able to leave. I have a feeling this is going to go from him just giving her friend a massage to giving her friend and her a massage, doing something for his dad & talking to his mom (because she never knows how to shut up and let him leave). So its 3:00pm, he left 15 minutes. Hopefully he will be back at 5:00-5:30, not 6o’clock. But when I spoke to my mom, she asked if this was something I was going to be willing to deal with probably for the rest of my life & to be honest, I really don’t know. When I said I wanted to be with him, I didn’t mean him & his mother. And that’s one thing I fear is that we are goong to take this all the way & I’m going to end up breaking it off because of his damn mom’s restrictions on everything. She needs to realize that he does have his OWN life to live & that he can’t be HERS for the rest of his life. And that’s one thing I do worry about is that he never knows how to say no & do things he wants to do. When will he be able to live the life he wishes?

Yes, I owe his mother for bringing him into this world - but she owes me the chance to love him.. so if this continues, will I be able to be with the man I truly deep heartedly love or will I have to end it & hope to find love somewhere else? :/

crashh-nebula asked: can i have your progress blog password?
i know it seems personal but i'd really enjoy to read/look at it if you don't mind.

I havent started it yet, but it will be soon.

I’ve realized a lot tonight.

I realized that I bitch at my boyfriend for keeping shitty friends around and letting them use him - yet I do the same thing. I’ve realized that I’ve tried to work out friendships with people who truly don’t give a fuck at all & I’m truly done and over it. Time to change things around. I miss the blunt & honest bitchy jaime that I once was. if I tried with our friendship, I’m done trying. But don’t come running to me when your world comes crashing down.

I’m tired of giving a fuck about people who don’t give a fuck.